Additionally, we’ll be continuing the “I’m Sorry” campaign at Chicago’s Pride Parade on June 28th. The idea is that as Christians we go out to apologize for the ways the church has harmed LGBT communities as well as commit to making things better within church communities. This isn’t about condoning or condemning, rather we are there to listen and show love in tangible ways (free hugs are welcome too!).
Details about the history and purpose of the campaign are here: Link: http://TheMarinFoundation.org/ImSorry
Lastly, this week on Thursday I’ll be part of The Reformation Project’s Atlanta regional training conference. I’m part of a team that will conduct the Accademy For Racial Justice – a one day workshop on racial reconciliation and justice.
On Thursday night I’ll be part of the LGBT 101 panel discussion. This panel is aimed at teaching people the basics of how to engage with LGBT folks (do’s and don’ts) from Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, and Transgender Christians.
It will be live-streamed as well as archived on YouTube. I don’t have the live stream link yet but details are posted here: http://theReformationProject.org/atl15 and follow the hashtag #TRPinATL on social media.
If nothing else, your prayers and good thoughts are requested and appreciated. If you can, tune in, show up, and or tell a friend.
Last night in our music team rehearsal, there was a great time of sharing. A common theme was family – there were all kinds of family situations at various states. Right now, most of my blood related family lives in other states. A few weeks ago I was renewed in my need to start working through the messy details of my own family. One step was talking to my mom (sent an e-mail) about several things that I’ve wanted to ask about but didn’t want to stir difficult emotions by bringing them up. She let me know where she was with those things and it freed me to do whatever I felt I needed in my relationships with my other family members. In many ways I still don’t know how everything is going to work out, but I’m beginning a new chapter and hopefully can begin to build and restore some connections.
God is working on all of us. This morning my Aunt (my Father’s sister) called me. Things have been difficult since the passing of my father (her brother) in 2003. Both my mom and I were already facing some financial hardships and his passing was completely unexpected. Our family often keeps messy situations private, so my mom and I chose to quickly and quietly deal with his arrangements and estate. What I didn’t realize at the time is how much that hurt my aunt. There’s probably volumes more to this story that I don’t know about as well, but it was at least a year later before my aunt began to share with me her pain. That was rough because I was dealing with so much un-processed pain at the time myself. I was amazed to know that she was so affected and that’s why we hadn’t talked. It was then that I realized just how connected my family is. When my aunt called this morning, she was calling to let me know that she wants to start fresh and that she’s sorry we haven’t been in touch. I wish I could have hugged her right through my cell phone. I don’t want to continue in the patterns of silence that we’ve maintained for so long.
Individually everyone of us could be bleeding to death in the same room, but as long as we can keep it to ourselves, no one would ever mention it to the other. In retrospect, my Dad had emotional pains as well, that unless absolutely necessary – he wasn’t going to bring up. It’s just the way we deal with things – inside. Unfortunately it caused us to love each other but from a distance. For me, I grew up knowing I was loved, but that the ‘bad parts’ of me needed to be kept locked away until I ‘fixed’ them on my own. It’s what all of us did so I didn’t think it was anything less than normal. It’s only in my adult years after growing closer to some other families that I realize that what I grew up with isn’t the de facto standard of human civilization. That some families go through everything together good and bad. That I could intern be loved / accepted with my good and bad showing – novel concept for me. 🙂
All of this is new for me. I’m thankful for the beginning of reconcilliation. I feel so strongly that this is our time to heal.
Gosh! This whole dealing with your life and relationships thing is not easy. I’m really just writing this to give my self a breather from a conversation that I’m beginning to have with someone significant in my life. My intention in the conversation is reconciliation – a good three or more years worth of it.
Right now I’m reading the last chapter of Safe People and it seems to be the most difficult part of the book for me. It talks about reconciling your relationships as being the preferable goal of dealing with your issues. For me it’s scarier than walking away (which I’m also to scared to do). I guess I just need to remind myself that I have to give it time. I don’t have to ‘fix it all’ in one conversation (we had to get off the phone quickly today which is probably why I’m still all tensed up). The good thing is that the other person seems to be open to dialog and actually shared some major things that have been going on in their own life.
Help me to be at peace today… not to become overwhelmed or entangled with fear about today. I can only do so much each day, and I believe that you order every day with just the right amount of challenge and rest. Father help me to stay in step with your yoke. Thank you for giving me safety and rest in good relationships with your people. Help me to keep this all in perspective.