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I’m So Happy!

I’m so happy and blessed that I could roll on the floor crying tears of joy right about now.  Today was an awesome day for me.  So many things went well at church.  I tend to feel amazing when I leave church but on much deeper levels today was special.

I battle with fear when it comes to singing solo / lead.  I thought this was obvious to everyone – especially since we use a huge projection screen at church.  A few weeks ago I shared this with our Music Director as I was feeling pretty bad about a small lead part I did in the service.  I got complements from several people but I couldn’t receive any of them.  I even got complements on the clothes I was wearing (which were new and I liked a lot) but i didn’t even feel good about that. I realized that this was my issue and things weren’t quite as bad as I was making them out to be.  I just was afraid of ‘messing up’ and even more afraid that I was bad and no one would tell me.  Me telling Fran (our Music Director) about how I felt along with talking about it in one of my groups really helped me to see just how my attitude was.  It was exposed and in the light and suddenly it didn’t seem so big.

Fast-forwarding to this week, I was given a lead part with two solo verses.  Fran really wanted me to pray about leading this song because the lyrics were definitely something that I could sing from my heart.

Sometimes at night
I am afraid
I cover my eyes,
Cover my shame
So here in the dark
Broken apart
Come with your light
And fill up my heart

Oh great light of the world
Fill up my soul
I’m half a man here
So come make me whole
Oh great light of the world
Come to impart
The light of your grace
To fill up my heart

Great Light Of The World by Bebo Norman

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Blessed Beyond Measure

Thursday. Friday. Saturday. Sunday. All days that have knocked my socks of with the amazing reality of how I have been blessed by God.

I hope to get around to blogging more about all of it later, but to put it quickly

Thursday – Day 1 of the 2-day Willow Creek Leadership Summit.  Great and challenging teaching and insights into leadership.

Friday – Day 2 of the Leadership Summit.  I had the opportunity to lift my voice in the choir closing session of the summut reaching tens of thousands across the country live via satelitte.  I had the opportunity to meet Bill Hybles and share a portion of my story and how God has blessed me through Willow Chicago.  I also took a risk and became a bit more transparent with someone at my church and I was accepted.

Saturday – given the opporunity to lead worship at my churches Lakeside Baptism. In wittnessing that awesome event I was overwhelmed with the beauty of what Baptism is – and its significance in the body of Christ.

Sunday – Had a great time of worship and teaching at church – hearing from one of my recent favorite authors: Dr. Henry Cloud.  After that spending the rest of the day with several friends having a great time.

These are just little ‘tidbits’ of my days, but it all adds up to me realizing that God is makinging something beautiful of my life.  There are some very difficult times, but on days like these – though money is tight and so many things are uncertain –  life can still be enjoyed and God is still providing reasons for joy.

Wow… now I’m confused… BUT STILL HAPPY!

lol… the saga continues….

Well the friend I wrote about in previous blog entries was at the Christmas party I went to… and was quite friendly… he and his friend. I don’t know what to make of it all. Whatever the case, we all had a good time at the party and maybe we could already be on the road to restoration.

Have a Merry Christmas everyone!

if you want to see photos from the party, click these photos!O Christmas Tree, O Christmas Tree...

Sunday December 24, 2006 – 04:08am (CST)

Thank God for LIFE!

Darren on his 27th Birthday
Just a quick blog to say I’m greatful to God for 27 years of LIFE!
Refiner’s Fire
Purify my heart
Let me be as gold and precious silver
Purify my heart
Let me be as gold, pure gold

Refiner’s fire
My heart’s one desire
Is to be holy
Set apart for You Lord
I choose to be holy
Set apart for You my Master
Ready to do Your will

Brian Doerksen / 1990 Mercy/Vineyard Publishing

Sunday December 3, 2006 – 10:21am (CST)

Entry for July 01, 2006

Well Hey Glory!!!

I Had a much needed conversation with my boss today.  I’m really happy that I’m working for a man of God who’s for real.  It’s funny because even though we work with alot of ‘church folk’ I see him come through with integrity time after time.  He doesn’t leave anything in the dark or to the imagination and even though you don’t always like him (lol) you love his integrity and honesty.  It’s a rare trait and I only know two other men that I hold in such regard.

So after one of the most trying two weeks I’ve had in a LONG time (and even stting at work on a Saturday typing this) I’m happy to say IT IS WELL!

I’ll update my blog more soon.

Saturday July 1, 2006 – 02:52pm (CDT)

Shave and a Haircut… FEELS GOOD!

Ok… I’m going through this pocess of self discovery and self-image repair so just bear with me.

Yesterday, I had the wonderful experince of getting my hair cut, but I realized just how much more confident I was in my appearance because of it.

I’m gonna write more about this later… HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

Thursday November 24, 2005 – 12:04pm (CST)