Zephaniah 3:15 says “The Lord has taken away your punishment, he has turned back your enemy…” and verse 17 goes on to remind us that God is with us, delighting us, loving us, and even singing about US. Tonight I had a long conversation with a friend who was feeling the guilt of sin and failure. In all of that he was frustrated the discrepancy between where he wanted to be spiritually and where he was in that moment. I’ve been there myself, but this scripture brings out a GREAT point about the Grace of God that applies in his situation as well. Continue reading Mighty to Save
When your bootstraps have broken and your strength is gone… when you just can’t ‘get it together’ when you know it’s all your fault… the truth is the truth and it all points to you messing up. When too much is on you to give up now, but moving a nother step in any direction is just as unbearable as standing still… when you’ve encouraged others and uplifted others, but can’t seem to uplift yourself right now.
What do you do when your sane enough not to do something crazy, but your life is crazy enough to make you want to do something insane?
I’m just tired and frustrated… I don’t want anybody to come and lay hands, I don’t want somebody to sit me down in their bible study… I don’t want someone to speak big words they got out of a dictionary to say the same things over and over again. I’m tired of being treated like a ‘project’ to fix up, like a ‘broken and lost soul’, or like super man… I just want to find out how to live a simple life and be happy. I don’t want to chace after money to survive, I don’t want to bend and contort to the latest paradigms and concepts of how to look spiritual and sound authoritative. I’m tired right now… I hurt inside… my weeks run together, my days blur by, and I can never see where a change will come for the better.
I don’t know how to do life… I don’t know how to make it work. I’m tired of comming up short. I’m tired of my words being used against me… and my silence being reason for reproof. I’m sick of being full of hope yet overcome by pressure and fear.
I want to be in God’s perfect will, but I know my will hasn’t been transformed yet. I want to take it a day at a time and deal with it as it comes, but my past looks a whole lot like my present just with different people.
I don’t have the enery to be the support to those around me… yet I feel someone right now saying “he’s talking about “I” too much” and so I ask how do you do and give to everyone yet still be too concerned about yourself? How do you maintain your body and health while still being availible and accountable for the demands of your job?
I love to worship… but somehow life gets in the way… worship is timelss and boundeless… I feel so free, alive, real in worship. I want that to overflow into the rest of my life. We’re called to live a lifestyle of worship… but this present lifestyle looks like God isn’t gettting the glory.
I want to figure it out… but I always end up relying on someone’s way… and eventually that gets in the way. All the “men of God” all the time management books, all the deliverance books and videos, all the sermons and prayer lines, all the stuff and things… I just want God… to be in his presence… the changes he makes in my life work and are real, but they never meet other folk’s expectations… or they don’t ‘manifest’ fast enough for them.
I’m just ‘venting’ I guess…
- Kiss Me and Get It Over With!
A new friend and brother encouraged my heart with this today. I think it will be a blessing to you too…. check out an except from what he wrote.
What I want to encorage you to do is tell the Devil…”Kiss me and get it over with”Just as Christ told Judas before He was betrayed, “What ever you do, do it quickly” then later, Judas kissed Jesus on the cheek and Christ was crucified…you know the rest…My point is there are times in your Christian experience that people who you selected to trust, who are close to you set you up to be crusified and leave you for dead. They bury you never expecting for you to recover, make EVERYTHING difficult for you. You on the other hand must take on the mind of Christ and be certain that you are in tune with what GOD is about to do in your life. When those that we love and love us start trippin! Know that something great is coming after this, something supernatural…and tell the Devil…”Kiss me and get it over with” I know I am gonna be hurt, I know I am gonna be beat down, I know that I am gonna be battered, lied on, lied to, disappointed, but the sooner you kiss me the sooner I will get my breakthrough, the sooner I will get my miracle, the sooner I will get my deliverance…Just kiss me and get it over with, I am on my way to a new level of anointing, I am an my way to a new dimention in Christ!!! “THOUGH YOU SLAY ME, YET WILL I TRUST HIMEven when they try to bury you…realize that anythig buried is not expected to get back up! But you’ve got to realize that you have been planted…NOT BURIED…PLANTED…It may take a moment but afterwhile you will breakthrough all the dirt that was thrown at you! You will come back stronger, healthier, prosperous, anointed the more, more determined…Everything about you will be different. They will say but I thought…this-that-the other, and you can say Devil you should not have done that…You should not have let me live to get through this, but now…God has anointed me! God has renewed me, God has revived me! God has restored me, God has rescued me, Now I am recovering everything that was taken away from me! Devil…Just kiss me and get it over with…I have purpose and destiny to fulfill…Kiss me and get it over with…I have the will of God for my life.______________I thank GOD for his sons, such as Rev Lemuel Bannister, Jr. who blessed and encouraged me today…My head is still reeling on what steps I am to take next… so keep me in your prayers and stay tuned!–Min. Darren
Wednesday October 12, 2005 – 10:28pm (CDT)