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walking on water

I took a step of faith tonight.

Oh,what I would do to have
the kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat I’m in
Onto the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown
Where Jesus is,
And he’s holding out his hand

But the waves are calling out my name
and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times
I’ve tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
time and time again
“Boy, you’ll never win,
you’ll never win.”

But the voice of truth tells me a different story
the voice of truth says “do not be afraid!”
and the voice of truth says “this is for my glory”
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

– “Voice of Truth” by Casting Crowns

I’ve decided to search for something better.  Once again, I’m at a place of trust and surrender.  Father, I’m committing myself to you.  Lead me and guide me.  You’ve called me out and I’m responding.  Take what I have… my brokenness and frailty and build me into what and who you’ve called me to be.

Thank you Father,

Amen

Oh my soul cries out…

My heart is heavy… and has been for a while now… this song captures a good part of the way I feel… please read and respond!

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin’ so small

Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they’ll soon discover
That I don’t belong

So I tuck it all away, like everything’s okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I’ll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them

[Chorus]
Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation’s open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone who’s been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who’s traded
In the altar for a stage

The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be

Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay

[Chorus]

Stained Glass Masquerade” LYRICS by CASTING CROWNS

Wednesday November 2, 2005 – 09:34pm (CST)

What Is A Man To Do?

I can willl it, but I can’t do it. I decide to do good, but I don’t really do it; I decide not to do bad, but then I do it anyway. My decisions, such as they are, don’t result in actions. Something has gone wrong deep within me and gets the better of me every time.

It happens so regularly it’s predictable. The moments I decide to do good, sin is there to trip me up. I truly delight in God’s commands, but it’s pretty obvious that not all of me joins in that delight. Parts of me covertly rebel, and just when I least expect it, they take charge.

I’ve tried everything and nothing helps… The answer, thank God, is that Jesus Christ can and does. He acted to set things right in this life of contradictions where I want to serve God with all my heart and mind, but am pulled by the influence of sin to do something totally different. (Romans 7:17-25 in The Message )

So where is My focus?

Later in this passage (Rom 8:5-11 ) Paul talks about where our focus is… basicly that when we focus on ourselves in the matters of doing right and living right, we are not focused on God and subject ourselves to coninued failure. This is where my life has been SO frequently. I get caught up in working so hard on my self… or being so hard on myself that I easily shift from God who is my savior to me and what power I have (which amounts to nothing).

A few weeks ago, I made up my mind to let some changes happen in my life and I got rid of some things and let go of a few others… but none of those outward changes have been lasting. Inwardly, I’m trying not to play the guilt and shame game, because they don’t get me anywhere. What I have noticed is that I’ve been so focused on myself and my issues that I don’t give God half the time and attention I did. That’s silly because he’s always telling me that He didn’t call me because of what I could do, he just loves me period.

That’s what is important… I’m not going to be a new man because of the strength of my decisions… no, this change will only be realized through the power of His Spirit working in me.

The words of the Song “Who Am I” by Casting Crowns will sum it up best:

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin,
Would look on me with love,
and watch me rise again,
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me,

Not because of who I am,
But because of what You’ve done,
Not because of what I’ve done,
But because of who You are,

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean (ocean),
A vapor in the wind,
Still You hear me when I’m calling,
Lord, You catch me when I’m falling,
And You’ve told me who I am…
I am Yours, I am Yours.

That’s all for now! I love you all and thanks for the many wonderful comments… feel free, agree or disagree… what’s true will always stand.

In His Grace,

–Darren

Saturday October 29, 2005 – 05:10pm (CDT)