Gosh! This whole dealing with your life and relationships thing is not easy. I’m really just writing this to give my self a breather from a conversation that I’m beginning to have with someone significant in my life. My intention in the conversation is reconciliation – a good three or more years worth of it.
Right now I’m reading the last chapter of Safe People and it seems to be the most difficult part of the book for me. It talks about reconciling your relationships as being the preferable goal of dealing with your issues. For me it’s scarier than walking away (which I’m also to scared to do). I guess I just need to remind myself that I have to give it time. I don’t have to ‘fix it all’ in one conversation (we had to get off the phone quickly today which is probably why I’m still all tensed up). The good thing is that the other person seems to be open to dialog and actually shared some major things that have been going on in their own life.
Help me to be at peace today… not to become overwhelmed or entangled with fear about today. I can only do so much each day, and I believe that you order every day with just the right amount of challenge and rest. Father help me to stay in step with your yoke. Thank you for giving me safety and rest in good relationships with your people. Help me to keep this all in perspective.
Thank you for the help and the way of escape.